Reality starts to hit.

From the moment when I read the email saying that I had been accepted a place on soul 61 I don't think it hit me just what a challenge the next few months are going to be, but also the huge opportunity this is. 

I haven't really been thinking much about the upcoming year, and the whole move down to Watford, the huge change that is going to happen in my life. But today I think reality hit a little bit, and this has made me even more excited, but also a little bit nervous. I got the email today with all the details on about the course, and as soon as I saw the starting date (Saturday 3rd November) the reality of it all kicked in.

For me it isn't just going to be a big day because I'm moving away from home, and leaving all my family and home church, but its the fact that it will be the start of the biggest journey of my life. The start of something completely different and new. But also, it's me stepping out and doing what God has told me to do, theres no certainty about it, yes I have the certainty that I'll be in Watford for 10 months, but after that I haven't got a clue, all I know is that I need to be in Christian work, and this is a scary thought, not knowing what is in store. But God has promised to show me the way, and he has promised that he's going to guide me down all the right paths, it's all so exciting yet scary at the same time! 

Moving to Watford for me is going to seem like the start of this huge adventure with God, and even though I have put it off, I know that leaving is going to be a huge battle, friends that I have had around me for most of my life(a couple I've known all my life) are going to be around the world  and across the country, and we'll only be a skype call away, completely different to seeing each other everyday. Of course leaving my family, especially my mum is going to be so hard, especially when she is like my best friend. Then there's leaving my church, which is going to be so difficult, the place that has helped me through so much, and accepted me no matter what, and supported me all my life, and it's going to be so weird not worshiping with them on a Sunday. But this is all part of the new story, Burnley and Nelson have become my comfort zones, and God wants me out of my comfort zones, he's pushing me out into different places to do different things, because if I didn't then he wouldn't be able to use me half as much! 

Although as scared as I am, I'm so so SO excited for everything God is going to do in me, and for the whole new start, as scary as it is, it's going to be the best decision I have ever made and the most exciting thing I have ever done. And through it all, he is going to stick right by my side. 

I'll leave you with a verse that has stuck with me since my baptism in 2008:

 

"Then Jesus came to them and said, 'All Authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me, Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age' - Matthew 28:18-20